Where's the Silver Lining?

I might delete this soon when I realise how stupid this post will sound. But for now... Recently my life's been quite chaotic. Its been anti-climatic since the last exam. Looking back, I realised that much has changed.

Things change, people change but somehow I feel left behind. Like a broken record. Just recently, I've learned a lot about what people in general think of me and some of it isn't good.

It seems that some people's first impression of me being pretentious and dislike me in general. According to them, its because:

1) Apparently I'm too nice to be real (hidden intention?)
2) I somehow "stole" someone else friend
3) I have slightly better grades.

Of course that was two years ago but somehow I wonder if it still holds true today. Now every time I look into her eyes, I keep thinking, wondering because I think that even if I ask her directly, she won't give me a straight answer.

Some may think that I'm doing the "cutesy" act but I don't. Its just me being me. Period. I get where you're coming from but how to I change someone who I've been,still am and will be? I can't change who I am and how I act but is it that bad?

It hurts to care. Very much so. Its different before I met these people. To fit in, I had to learn to get along with people. Get to know their likes and dislikes. They are undoubtedly nice people but they are just different. We never clicked so I became somewhat distant.

That's why I felt happy because I finally meet wonderful people who are more of my type. Recently a friend and I had a talk, as honest as we can get.
Look I'm not asking people to like me but please understand. I'm simply me. I hope that from this point things will turn for the better. I hope.

Laughter gives us distance. It allows us to step back from an event, deal with it and then move on.

Campus Life?

"To live is to choose. But to choose well, you must know who you are and what you stand for, where you want to go and why you want to get there.”

I went to Midvalley for the Education Fair. I thought that now I know what I would want to study (which is Culinary Arts by the way), all that's left is the simple matter of choosing a college/university to go. It cant be that hard can it...

Its just not that simple.

There is a college but its more like a academy that specialises in culinary. If I go there I'll have much experience needed for this kind of work. Its like the right thing to do plus I do like the place but somehow I feel like if I go there, I'll never be satisfied.

It may seem shallow but I want to experience college/campus life. To join clubs and meet people other than those taking the same course as me. I want to graduate in a convocation wearing the robes and going up the stage...Is it bad? Is it selfish to wish for it?

If I were to go to a proper university, I would have all of those but then again...Well I have to study more of a F&B side which means more study and bury my head in books. Something that I'm not very keen at. Well at least my mother is giving me full reins on my future.

Two roads diverge in the woods;

And will I take the one less travelled by

Well who knows

We'll just have to wait and see

Recent Happenings~

I really feel bad for being unbelievably lazy with blogging recently. I can't really explain it but when I looked back at my old blog post, I felt like the me before was quite different with the me now. Maybe its the blogging style and focus?

Since I've missed about two weeks, surely there would be a lot to blog about but I think that I'll leave it as a story for another day. =P

Recently there's this CNY Open House Celebration at school. It was truly fun especially this year - Honestly I am shocked at my own eager-ness to attend a school function. (Really I was very excited and even brought my camera for it)


There check out the stage. Its made of 16 thing (Imagine an upside down box) made of pure wood. Whats important? My class was the one who assembled it. God that thing is so heavy that it requires four people to lift it every time.

These pictures are really precious to me. Its nostalgic - It HAS been a long time since we met up, have fun and took loads of photos together~

It was really fun you guys. We should do this more often kay~~So anyway I went around backstage if that's what you call it as its not really much of a backstage after all and saw...a DISASTER~!!

I mean no offense to anyone but seriously they need a new stylist? Their outfit is fine from what I heard from all my friends they look like reindeer with antlers! Oh By the way this is the lion that loved "terrorizing" students watching the performance.


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Oh yeah since carmen's blog have mentioned it, I guess I should also ask . I am also wondering what song I should sing for the upcoming choir audition.

1. Wish Upon a Star by Samantha Mumba



2. If You Can Dream by Disney



3. When you wish upon a star by Meghan Martin



4. We Are One from Lion King



Please do help me decide.