17th

It occured to me - I’m finally 17.

One month from now we’ll all be taking our finals that will mark the end of our high school years. From there we’ll go our separate ways and would probably never meet again.

The fact that this familiarity will finally reach its conclussion is a little daunting. I mean I’ve spent my entire life wishing it to end but now… Its exciting - the unknown that is.

Anyway Thank You to all who remembered my birthday. I was really happy. I didn’t think there would be this many but then again I guess facebook helped too. A gift really isn’t necessary.

“Even though we’ve changed and we’re all finding our own place in this world, We know that when the tears fall or the smile spread across our face, we’ll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we’re all not still friends”

Moving On~

Hey People~

Its been a long time since I've updated. I've just been past a turbulent part of my life. I'm moving on right now literally to Wordpress Tumblr (sorry to Wordpress fans but I really dislike it ;P) where I hope I could begin blogging there afresh.

Here's the link>>>> http://amaryllisbella.tumblr.com/

This is a quote I stumbled upon that I find quite relevant to my current predicament

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending"

Talk about Drama~~

This is so very overdue. There is so much happening and so little time that I just feel like its such a bother to blog about everything.

In the recent months there is trouble brewing between my class & another. Quite a big issue at first (well there is $$ at stake) but then well we just couldn't care less anymore. We all have friends in the other class too. So currently everything is going smoothly I think...

Anyway I'm going to leave things at this. I'm swamped with homework, projects, folios & exams that somehow or another LOVE to pick the SAME datelines. What I'm bothered is the fact that I signed myself up for EVERYTHING~~Maybe AFTER I dig myself out I'll blog some more but till then~~well we'll see.

The day has Come.

Today was really exhilarating~!! I didn't know debate would be this challenging & fun. Well for most of us, this is our maiden debate.

It was quite hyped out, Arts 1 are going against Science 1. The motion was "This house believes that advertisement brings more harm than good." and I am the 2nd opposition speaker.

The result was close, lost by 2 points. Even so, some think that the judges were bias. During the debate, Science 1 had "informants" which was illegal. They weren't suppose to have extra people helping them during the debate!!

Point 2, During POI, twice they have overstepped their boundaries by arguing with me AFTER stating their point of information. Third, the 3rd speaker has brought up a NEW point when she was supposed to do only REBUTTALS which was again against the rule.

I didn't know how the finals went, but its gotta be amazing because the motion was really difficult. "This house should abolish death penalty"...or something like that. Debate is really thrilling. I wanted to go back there and re-do it but what is bygone is bygone so whatever.

I really salute those debaters. I myself find it hard to keep a level head and also remember what the opponent say and also what your team mates mentioned. I find myself losing track on what I was supposed to say XD

Congrats to the winning team~!! ^^

There is always a First Time~

I never knew how fun an open book test could be.It was really interesting especially during history exam. The moment our teacher said start,all you could here was the sound of flipping book pages XD

Then suddenly, everyone was quiet. We either found the page ourselves or was being told of the page by our neighbors. And then we started to copy and paste. The thing was, halfway through the essay questions I realized that I copied the wrong thing!

I was like "oh shit",smacked my forehead and I was inwardly screaming,"how could I NOT have seen it! I might even be the first to flunk an open book test if it was even possible!" I didn't realize though that my friends could hear me XD


Luckily thanks to my "amazing" speed writing *ahem* I managed it in 5. God thats a lot of drama for a 1 hour test.

Anyway, our school should do this more often. Its not stressful and quite fun actually. It would be even better that they would do this for SPM but I'm really pushing my luck there. ^^


I think the image above said everything. Just 6 more month to go. Patience patience~~~

Where's the Silver Lining?

I might delete this soon when I realise how stupid this post will sound. But for now... Recently my life's been quite chaotic. Its been anti-climatic since the last exam. Looking back, I realised that much has changed.

Things change, people change but somehow I feel left behind. Like a broken record. Just recently, I've learned a lot about what people in general think of me and some of it isn't good.

It seems that some people's first impression of me being pretentious and dislike me in general. According to them, its because:

1) Apparently I'm too nice to be real (hidden intention?)
2) I somehow "stole" someone else friend
3) I have slightly better grades.

Of course that was two years ago but somehow I wonder if it still holds true today. Now every time I look into her eyes, I keep thinking, wondering because I think that even if I ask her directly, she won't give me a straight answer.

Some may think that I'm doing the "cutesy" act but I don't. Its just me being me. Period. I get where you're coming from but how to I change someone who I've been,still am and will be? I can't change who I am and how I act but is it that bad?

It hurts to care. Very much so. Its different before I met these people. To fit in, I had to learn to get along with people. Get to know their likes and dislikes. They are undoubtedly nice people but they are just different. We never clicked so I became somewhat distant.

That's why I felt happy because I finally meet wonderful people who are more of my type. Recently a friend and I had a talk, as honest as we can get.
Look I'm not asking people to like me but please understand. I'm simply me. I hope that from this point things will turn for the better. I hope.

Laughter gives us distance. It allows us to step back from an event, deal with it and then move on.

Campus Life?

"To live is to choose. But to choose well, you must know who you are and what you stand for, where you want to go and why you want to get there.”

I went to Midvalley for the Education Fair. I thought that now I know what I would want to study (which is Culinary Arts by the way), all that's left is the simple matter of choosing a college/university to go. It cant be that hard can it...

Its just not that simple.

There is a college but its more like a academy that specialises in culinary. If I go there I'll have much experience needed for this kind of work. Its like the right thing to do plus I do like the place but somehow I feel like if I go there, I'll never be satisfied.

It may seem shallow but I want to experience college/campus life. To join clubs and meet people other than those taking the same course as me. I want to graduate in a convocation wearing the robes and going up the stage...Is it bad? Is it selfish to wish for it?

If I were to go to a proper university, I would have all of those but then again...Well I have to study more of a F&B side which means more study and bury my head in books. Something that I'm not very keen at. Well at least my mother is giving me full reins on my future.

Two roads diverge in the woods;

And will I take the one less travelled by

Well who knows

We'll just have to wait and see

Recent Happenings~

I really feel bad for being unbelievably lazy with blogging recently. I can't really explain it but when I looked back at my old blog post, I felt like the me before was quite different with the me now. Maybe its the blogging style and focus?

Since I've missed about two weeks, surely there would be a lot to blog about but I think that I'll leave it as a story for another day. =P

Recently there's this CNY Open House Celebration at school. It was truly fun especially this year - Honestly I am shocked at my own eager-ness to attend a school function. (Really I was very excited and even brought my camera for it)


There check out the stage. Its made of 16 thing (Imagine an upside down box) made of pure wood. Whats important? My class was the one who assembled it. God that thing is so heavy that it requires four people to lift it every time.

These pictures are really precious to me. Its nostalgic - It HAS been a long time since we met up, have fun and took loads of photos together~

It was really fun you guys. We should do this more often kay~~So anyway I went around backstage if that's what you call it as its not really much of a backstage after all and saw...a DISASTER~!!

I mean no offense to anyone but seriously they need a new stylist? Their outfit is fine from what I heard from all my friends they look like reindeer with antlers! Oh By the way this is the lion that loved "terrorizing" students watching the performance.


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Oh yeah since carmen's blog have mentioned it, I guess I should also ask . I am also wondering what song I should sing for the upcoming choir audition.

1. Wish Upon a Star by Samantha Mumba



2. If You Can Dream by Disney



3. When you wish upon a star by Meghan Martin



4. We Are One from Lion King



Please do help me decide.

Fu Nian

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR~!! "Fu" - Meaning tiger in Chinese but it can also mean bitter. I'm no superstitious but a year of bitter-ness?? I'd better hope not. My last year of school better be a great one!

Its kinda cool that Valentine this year falls on the Lunar New Year - a incident that according to the newspaper will only happen again 40 years later....aparently So in the spirit of the holidays I wish you all *you there reading this* very Happy Valentine. Even though memories of you may deteriorate (seriously I'm not joking, I have terrible memory)but you will always be in my heart.


Speaking in a more serious note I feel like compared to my mother's side, my relationship with my father's side cousins are restricted to recent news, latest events & polite smiles. We just aren't as close as we were many years ago. I wonder what'll happen when my parents aren't around anymore...Somehow things at my mother's side is more lively =P

Anyway this year for new year our family is doing steamboat here at home. My brother especially loved it - pigeon eggs. Tomorrow would be even better with cousins from my mother side joining in...

Its been awhile my mother has received overnight guests for the holidays so I'm pretty psyched up to see them. They'll be here for about two days and then we'll all go and meet up with the rest of my cousins in Lumut.

May all my friends pockets be filled with loads of angpau this year. Happy Holidays

To See What the Future Holds

In life everyone is constantly having to make decisions and face the consequences of them. So far I have yet to regret any of them but I wonder if I would - There are many things that require consideration and much much RE-consideration as there are some things that you cannot turn back and change.

I really hope the decision that I'll be making is the right one. But I think that even its the wrong one I wouldn't be regretting it.

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On an unrelated topic, I don't know if its because its the last of my schooling years but I feel like I'm looking foward to school activities more than usual with the exception of sports events. I would especially be persuaded to go if I could bring my camera along. =D Weird isn't it?

Oh and I'm really looking forward to new year this year.

Friendship on the Decline

I feels weird when you are happy, excited and wish to tell person who is the closest to you but couldn't because she just doesn't want to hear of it. She doesn't exactly say it out loud but her body language tells. It just made me feel a little crestfallen because I thought that she would be happy for me.

Every time I asked her about her true feelings, she would deny it. Maybe I am simply imagining things but every time we converse, it would be a taboo subject - like I'm wading through dangerous waters. How am I suppose to approach her?

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On an upbeast note, Form 5 have been quite hectic. With all the homework, projects, datelines and my other review blog schedule to keep, life hasn't been easy at all. Especially when my mom is paranoid about my grades this year =D But I know that she means well. I hope everything will go on smoothly this year...

My Life Thus Far

The post-return orientation was our last chance to meet each other in an official meeting and of course an opportunity to reminisce on our Jenesys Experience because really the only people who would never get bored of listening to our own tales is ourselves.

It was really a jolt to reality. During the candlelight session, our mind whirlled back to the time we argued with our parents as so we could participate...Our anticipation during the interview...Unimaginable joy when receiving our confirmation letter...Oh god the excitement when we actually arrived...and finally the sadness when we had to leave and part with our new found friends. It felt so long ago since then.

Many of us came..about 40++/60

And some... well came digitally (Lee attended though Web cam =D)

I was of course most pleased to meet him, one of my CM14 gang.

We finally get our certs and officially graduated as Jenesys '09 batch.

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On a non-related topic, two weeks into our school year, I felt like I had the best teachers around this year. But the most pronoun teacher had to be my BM teacher. In just two weeks, she has taught us alot. She has taught us to see things in a different perspective that I felt like I've been so ignorant of the world.

Anyway I totally have trouble writing an essay about the person I admire because frankly I don't admire anyone. I feel like its very fake because all you see is their outward persona and not who they really are. Its just a piece of my mind though so don't mind it.

Check it out. A gift from a dear friend. *Thanks Suzanne*

THE Final Year...

A year of servitude...

slavery...

and worst of all...

SPM~!!

Has just begun. So pray that we'll survive this carnage with all our limbs intact. (including our brain.)

Its an important year this year with our major public examination just round the corner. Being a Form 5 student *finally* is still hard to believe. We've spent most of our school years wishing for school to end and all of a sudden we're here...almost with only a year more to go. Though I'm a fifth year student now, I don't particularly feel any more different than I was the year before. Except for the wish to not fall behind my homework?

Also this year my favourite English teacher isn't going to teach with us for a third. (she has gone over to the afternoon session) so its kinda different...since we kept most of our last year's teacher. I'm also pressured to drop Add Maths since I suck so badly in it, but I don't exactly want to give up either. So we'll see...

Anyway many thanks to my dear friend Jennifer for the souvenir from Beijing. Its really beautiful and its on my fridge right now. =D


And also to Qi-chan who has gotten me a picture of my all-time favourite anime: Code Geass from the Comic Fiesta I never got to attend. XD I really love it~ Thank You


Ja ne~

Posibilities Beyond Imagination

The year 2009 has gone by and its time to face a brand new year filled with challenges and excitement (hey you won't know what's gonna happen~) But before that...A litle recap on the year.

A new year began as it ended

Filled with memories of our cherished misadventures

Though I'd say we've done well this year

With mauling and bloodshed kept to a minimum

Although we met new people along the way

It doesn't mean you're any less important

It just meant that our circle have grown

Besides the world seemed so much bigger now

With you and me and everyone in

Its the end for now but there's still a long way to go

So we should put our best foot forward

To face the brightest of our tomorrow.

Looking back at 2009, last year to me is definitely a fabulous year. Even though not everything went well, I feel truly blessed to be able to meet many new people from various places, nationalities and culture who each posses their own unique personalities and charm. *Hey you people from BRATs Ipoh'09 and Jenesys'09* And not to forget friends that I've known through the years. You are really nice and sweet people and I would like to thank all of you for making my life meaningful. I would also like to apologise *I'm sorry* if I've offended anyone throughout the year because I honestly didn't mean it.

So...As for my new year's resolution...I don't have any. Why? Well because I can't keep any so why bother. Its hard to keep by rules...especially those that you've made yourself. So everyone I would like to wish you a very Happee New Year~!! May the year be as wonderful as the rest.