Is This Life

Writing this now, I am looking upon numerous unpublished post for my blog. I don't know why but recently I feel that something essential has been missing from my writing.

It used to be something that come so naturally. Now looking back, I miss the days where my classmate and I would sit down and spend hours discussing characters, their flaws etc

I seem to be losing my sync~ Any advise? I have no more time to dance, draw and pursue my other interest. I feel like sometimes I have a problem of putting my ideas into words. I used to day dream in class and scribble my ideas but it seems that I don't any more. Is it part of growing up>? I don't want to lose that side of me.

Living in campus I love my home so much more then before. Now is the beginning of my 4th semester and I will not waste a bit of it. I have to work harder to maintain an above 3.5 CGPA because recently I feel to a dangerously low CGPA of 3.58. 

Its hard to believe that I'm now entering my second year in college. Recently I have gained an interest in Jdrama/Kdrama more so then Anime. And I believe that this is not helping my studies. However no matter what I especially <3 Choi Siwon. Time flies so fast...even faster then ever. I'm already 19 but I still feel like I was just 17 yesterday.

Well if this gets published in my blog.......well its quite messy isn't it. Perhaps I need to put my thoughts in order.

Formula 1

I'm really looking forward for the month up ahead. Its almost like a whirlwind with everything. On the top of the list is the up coming F1 part time job. Surprisingly this time I was among those assigned for the kitchen. Even though we're DCA students but we're only in our third semester.

Honestly I don't think I can manage preparing food en masse for THAT large event but I'll do my best.

Of course there are also other stuff but it just vanished from my head. So there. Wish me Luck

Fear

Fear.

The feeling of your heartbeat thumping against your chest magnified a thousandfold.

Your hands shaking

The feeling of darkness closing in.

For the first time I feel the what others mean by the fear of driving. 

Unknowingly it grew until it begin to cast a shadow on my heart.

Its such irony