MotoGP

Never in my wildest dream that I would be spending my 18th birthday at MotoGP - in a VIP suite complete with a fabulous view of the race track. So much happened...till I'm not even sure where to start.

My job there was to serve a free flow of beverages to the guest and to also clear the dishes. I am really thankful that they were so forgiving and nice - all of them- even after a few of my 'accidents'. I'm starting to understand why some service staff prefer to serve foreigners.

I'm sorry to say that some Malaysians have some attitude problem. After all, we are also human and we have emotions too. It was deadly tiring but it was well worth it....after a whole day's worth of sleep of course. It was so exhausting that I'm even still feeling it now. And by the end we became this>>>>>

However what that was supposed to be an exciting day changed for the worst with the death of a racer. Even though I've only heard of you but RIP no.58 Marco Simoncelli.

I won't say more about the day because towards the end of work - I wasn't really in my best mood. You would be moody too if you were stuck there for an additional two hours. It was almost 10pm and most of us haven't eaten yet.

The day wasn't over yet as I'm surprised by my friends - Aeny, Thurga and Winnie. In the end I still did properly celebrate my birthday complete with a cake and a McD dinner. I don't know how you guys pulled it off but thank you soo much.

This is truly be a birthday to remember - after all, my 18th birthday will only come once. =))

Nilai 2011 Fun Run

Yesterday was NILAI UNIVERSITY 11th Fun Run. It was the first time I saw the entire campus abuzz with activites - lecturers and students alike - coupled with rumours of the the 'officially unconfirmed' Deepavali holidays. It was quite exciting actually.

I did not mind watching them as running/ walking/ anything that requires stamina and endurance as it was never my forte anyway. With my size, people might think I am quite a decent runner but quite unfortunately I suck.

But watching the performances I was literally awestruck. It was exciting and it gave me a feeling that I've never felt in a long time.  A long time ago, everyone in school knew me. Now here in university for once I felt invisible. I wan't to be noticed - a performer - I want to be on the stage.

By next semester, I'll take part as a student helper or a performer. I've already been here 5 month. I can't wait forever. I refuse to spend my entire life doing nothing. I'll start with the upcoming motor GP. It'll be fun. I'm sure of it...or perhaps not?

"The best thing you can do in your life is to follow your heart. Take risks, live life. Don't have any regrets and know that everything happens for a reason."

Uncertainty of the Heart

"It sucks when you know that you need to let go, but you can't because you're still waiting for the impossible to happen."

You were my first friend in a strange place. I wondered if things did change that much. Saying hello to you and yet you won't even meet my eye. Was it me? I want to know - I really do - your reason.

Even though knowing will put me at ease. Yet a part of me doesn't want to ask. It feels like by confronting you -  my fears will somehow be realised. Is it really al right to allow everything to just drift away?

"Moving on is hard. Knowing when to move on is harder."

Yesterday we were best friends, Today I was suddenly a nobody. As far as I'm concerned, I haven't even done anything. Why? I really didn't think you were that sort of a person...but maybe you were. I just never realised.

I'm tired. I really feel tired - anticipating your feelings, trying hard to maintain something that was already falling apart. Do you know that? You were an important part of my life. I won't deny that but I also won't deny that it was also you who single handedly took everything apart.

"If someone came into your life but for some reason couldn't stay...just be glad that your paths crossed and somehow even for a moment you were happy."

This is how I choose to remember you by - friend, sisters, group mates, my first friend here.